my initials are BA. stands for badass


If you're going to fail, fail small

So I fell asleep last night before I posted. I missed one day of posting, but I still made something. Of course this is going to happen at some point and this happened to me once when I did this for my other blog.

However, we keep going and don’t worry too much about it.

I decided to apply for an Open Call. I’ve never done this before. Well, I’ve done it once when I applied for a fellowship in Alaska during the Summer of 2018. I didn’t get it and frankly, that’s alright because it wouldn’t have been my fit.

For this design practice, I decided to practice on my CV. I haven’t looked at my CV in the longest time and of course I had to update it. From Left to right is kind of my process. I used my resume as a template for the first one, but felt while it was clean, it didn’t exactly fit what I though a CV looked like which was just a straight up list. To be honest, I submitted for the open call expecting that I’m going to fail and not get into any of the exhibitions.

This is the point. To just try. Like speculative investing, how much are you willing to lose? $35 isn’t that much. That’s a week’s worth of groceries which isn’t bad at all.

If I never try, then I’ll never learn is what I’m saying. If I don’t fail, then I’m not going to learn how to succeed. However, I can’t fail big. Failing big is not what I’m trying to do. The compounding of small failures over time doesn’t sound the best, but it teaches me to be okay with it. To learn to be comfortable with failure is basically doing research. By failing, you’re researching what works and what doesn’t work.

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Bradley Afroilan