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Comfort is the death of success

I woke up today and listened to one of my motivational podcasts. Yeah, it’s a little corny, but it helps out a lot every single day. As an introvert and someone who doesn’t interact with a lot of people here in NYC, it’s hard to stay motivated. However, it’s surprising how hearing the right words at the right time can change my perspective so quickly.

I woke up at 6:30 am and was a bit tired. I was glad that I didn’t have to go to work today, but I also was a bit nervous because I posted another zine on instagram. I don’t know how successful it was going to be and when I woke up today, it wasn’t as successful as my other zine, “Sober in NY.” However, I’m going through this process where I just want to fail. I want to keep shooting my shots and learn from failure. But it was a bit more tough because I had followed my research and analytics that I figured from my last posts. I’ve been listening to Darren Daily for the last few weeks and usually I don’t listen to them until I get to work. Today, I decided to just turn it on as I got up and boy was that a big pick me up.

The line, “comfort is mediocrity which means comfort is the death of success",” put a lot of things into perspective for me. I’ve never liked the idea of getting comfortable because once I do, I don’t feel like I’m growing. That was the main reason I moved to NYC which was to be uncomfortable and push myself to grow. I got comfortable when I moved here which influenced me to not want to design that much besides doing it at work. Not a bad decision because all I wanted to do when I got here was skate. While I can’t be mad at myself, I have to think about how much I could have done within that year with respect to design. Actually, I don’t want to think about it because I get sad about it.

Like yesterday, I’m trying to use anger as my motivator to get me where I need to be. Not entirely sure where I need to be, but I want to be in a position where I can create and I’m actually getting paid a bit. End goal is just to be able to skate all day and design just a little bit to get by while I have a passive income growing.

2019 is approaching and while I don’t like the sound of the year, I need this year to be the one where I make a breakthrough. I need to focus so much on design and my craft that it finally pays off.

I think I’ve finally figured out the mediums that I want to work with. 35 mm film, graphic design, and video with a focus on skateboarding. It’s a lot, but if I can put all of this together and weave it very well, I’m gonna be fucking awesome.

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Bradley Afroilan