Overwhelmed

3 good things

1. Didn’t have to go into manhattan to interview

2. Got to catch up with a good friend

3. Gonna go drop off some film

4. Getting dinner with friends

There’s a lot of things going on right now. Different gigs, trying to do my own personal projects, falling behind a little bit here and there. I guess it’s a good time to reassess since I’m stressed. I’m stressed for no reason though. Everything that I’m doing is what I want to do right now, but I guess it’s that I feel like I don’t have time to accomplish everything. I guess thats what happens when you live in New York. It’s always on the go, but it’s for what reason?

I think the main thing I need to do is reassess. I was talking with someone I went on a date with and they sent me an article about productivity and the glorification of burnout. It’s not a pretty thing. Burnout that is.

I’m in a headspace right now where I like being productive because I just like the feeling of it. But I don’t know if I’m actually doing it right. But no one really knows if they’re doing it right.

Consistency is important, but I’m figuring out that I need to be a bit more intentional. Showing up for certain things means showing up, but there are certain things you can show up in different ways. So for example, showing up for a job means showing up on time. When it comes to posting on instagram. Who cares? If you don’t have something to show, then don’t show it yet.