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So I went on a date again. I’m realizing that going on dates on Friday nights for coffee/ tea is not the best thing after doing it twice. In short, it was kind of weird because I pulled up at 7:50pm, waited in a book store, and then found that my date was waiting in the coffee shop but never hit me up even though I hit her up to tell her at 7:50pm where I was. When we met, she kind of looked at me funny and kind of like sternly. I said Hi and she said, is that all you say? And I wasn’t aware that she had been waiting in the coffee shop. Later we realized the mistake and misunderstanding, but jeez, I’m like mad now.

Anywho, 3 good things to keep my mind off of these things.

  1. Helping my lil bro with college application process (long story short, I’m helping a friend go to college by helping him get connections to go to school for free)

  2. Bought Lunch today

  3. Been listening to Pourquoi Pas on repeat

Yeah, I think I’m never going on a coffee/ tea date on a Friday. It just feels weird so I think if I ever want to do that, I’m going to have to go to a bar or something. Cofee/ tea when it’s like afternoon is a bit different. That’s actually tomorrow I have a different date.

I feel like I’m getting out of touch with everything that I’ve been trying to do. Not entirely sure, but I’m trying to stay in my lane as much as I can, but we’ll see.

Tomorrow I need to run, possibly drop off my film, brunch/board games for a friend’s birthday, date, and then shoot photos. I also need to start working on my adobe creative residency app. Anywho, here are some designs that I threw together based on a website things.

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Bradley Afroilan
My body hurts

Woke up today in pain. It’s getting harder to take falls and slams. Or it’s that I’m not that used to doing it anymore. Also, I don’t know why it’s taken me so long to design today/ write this blog.

I watched a video on design today which was good.

I have a phone call with an old roommate in like 20 minutes.

I landed a really cool trick that I never thought I’d ever land every. I even got it on tape :D

I need to really sit down and just work out my proposal for Adobe.

I’m kind of taking one of the kids from Harold Hunter underneath my wing. He grew up in foster care and I’m helping him apply for college since there’s a good chance that he could go for free. Hopefully. I’d love to see him succeed in some way.

Skateboarding is so much fun. I’ve met so many people in the past two days. I guess this year is starting off pretty well. But then again, I haven’t had to go to work in like a week.

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Bradley Afroilan
Good start to the new year

Yesterday was a very strange start to 2019. I just felt very off for some odd reason. It took me half of the day to get myself motivated. Today, was almost the complete opposite. Woke up at 5am, went running at 6:30am, pumped my tires up, picked up my film.

Side tangent on the film. The film developed! The guy at the store was also super happy that it developed and the aesthetic came out super nice. Can’t wait to do something with it. I ended up sharing it with the woman I went on a date with. She said thanks. I told her she was cute. And that’s that hahahaha.

Anywho, picked up my film, went to the skatepark, got to skate a bunch, played 2 games of skate, networked a bit with another graphic designer, filmed and shot some photos, made a few new friends. Biked home, got food, designed this, finished my “hella” design, and now I’m just waiting to take a shower. I was supposed to shoot some photos of my other friend, but that didn’t work out. Fortunately, we rescheduled for this Saturday.

Oh, I also watched a lot of self development videos today. However, I really need to keep watching at least one video a day. I guess the habit that I built was that I am making something everyday and am practicing, but I still need to learn the rules a bit better. I found out that one of the classes that I bought is offering all of the other courses for free so I should probably jump on that.

I need to start working on the Adobe Creative Residency. I have all the resources I need, it’s just that I need to sit down and do that/ actually watch typography videos.

I’m also getting to the point where I’m like, dam, are personal projects even worth it? Is my newly changed website actually going to get me a job? Am I doing what I think I should be doing? To be honest, to answer that last one, I think I am. I think the question is am I doing all I can? That also goes into the question of the glorification of production and then I start to get anxiety and think that I’m not doing it right. It’s interesting, I was watching a video from The Futur with Aaron James Draplin who is supposed to be a celebrity designer. They asked him how he got his work. He said, he doesn’t know. He just knows how he got his work. From what I got from it, it's having a network, showing your work, and partially luck.

Consistency is king. I’ll need to keep sharing my work no matter what I feel inside. There’s a lot of anxiety inside to show my work. I fear criticism, but everything I’ve learned in the last month is the only thing keeping me going. I need to keep making shit because it only lasts for about a day. I’m not worth how I did last time. Some pieces of work mean more to different people.

The question becomes, how can I use my researcher side of me to create content that is valuable and educational to people? I could just create/ show my process in how I design? Do I need to keep sharing my most deepest thoughts. Seth Godin says to just be useful rather than to be authentic.

I think if I just keep this up for a year, we’ll see what happens.

New Years Resolutions

  1. Shoot and develop a roll of film a week

  2. create 2 zines every single week

  3. watch a typoraphy/ skill video every single day

  4. Design something. Anything every single day.

  5. Do things that I don’t like to do. So a Yes Year.

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Bradley Afroilan
2019

Today, the first day of January 2019, started off rather strange. I came back from a New Year’s Party last night, went to sleep, and woke up very tired. We weren’t out that late. We came back at around 1:30am/ 2am and I woke up at 8am. But for some odd reason, everything just felt very off. It’s not the best thing especially when it’s the new year and your trying to have resolutions and things like that. However, like I said, my resolution started back in November. Dang, it’s almost been 2 months. I really need to actually start investing. However, I’ve been focused on looking for new gigs right now. I recently saw the sample application for the Adobe Creative Residency. It opens up on January 7th so I’m trying to figure out how to write a proposal and fortunately, I have a resource that I bought that will hopefully help me do so.

I really want this year to be the year that I actually become the person I didn’t think I wanted to become. What I mean by that is that I want to have some type of influence in this world because the fact that it’s 2019 and the fact that 19 years ago it was 2000 has a very shocking feel to me. I could literally wake up tomorrow and be like, dam I’m 40 years old and what have I done.

I don’t want to look back at life and say, I should have done this. I should have gone on dates more, I should have just talked to that person, I should have made more things, I should have…etc.

I’m not entirely sure what 2019 has in store, but for sure this year, I want to be a little bit more in control. But what that means doesn’t mean doing things comfortably, it means doing the things that I don’t like to do because I know that way is the path that will lead me to the most growth. It’s like the opposite of learning how to swim which is a gradual process. Literally, I’m trying to throw myself into the pool and just see what happens. It’s strange because a friend last night was talking to me about astrology and all that crap. So my signs are earth signs which basically means that I take comfort in routine. It’s gonna be hard this year to get myself out of that. However, I think that’s exactly what I want to do if I want to have the most growth. Maybe this year is supposed to be a yes year. Where I just say yes to everything? Not entirely sure if that’s the best idea? But maybe I should just do the things that I don’t want to do. I feel like that’s going to be a lot of nights out in manhattan. A lot of rides on the subway. A lot of acting in a way that I’m not used to doing. When I say that, I think that means being a bit more forward in the relationships that I develop with women that I go on dates with?

My roommate said to me last night as we were ubering back how dating is the best way to learn about yourself. It’s figuring out what you like, what you don’t like, and finding the right balance between people. It’s actually a nice learning experience especially since I went to an all guy school in high school. I guess I’m just a really late bloomer even though apparently a bunch of people in the past have flirted with me, but I’m never cognizant of it since I’m just so focused on myself.

Welp, the design below is just a quick preview of something I made today that I’ll put up tomorrow. VHS inspired and I’m happy with it.

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Bradley Afroilan