7.5.16

Boredom and sleepiness came to visit me yesterday at work. Unfortunately, there weren't any youth who came by to hangout. As well, the morning run, which was around 5-6miles around UC Berkeley and back was mundane and hurt a long the ways. I just have no motivation to run anymore or want to work out. I'm remninded of what my friend the lawyer says to me. It's on the days when you don't want to get up that you have to get up and stay active. Staying active is the way to stay young. I guess i just need a new activity.  I haven't been skateboarding in a while either. It's not the most accessible thing for me anymore because I don't really like going outside to skate because it's all in the street.  However, there is a park nearby which means I should probably just go and skate at the park on the basketball courts which is how I grew up skateboarding originally. I'll figure it out. I've been thinking about taking up kick boxing or learning how to rock climb for giggles.

Anywho, my co-worker and I ended up just watching a movie. Sadly, we weren't able to watch a movie with the kids because no one came. I ended up going to my internship after and unfortunately, my supervisor was not there so I just sat there and tried to do some work. I went to campus to return some almost overdue library books. It's strange to be on campus becuase I don't want to be there right now.

At home, my housemate, Edgar returned which was great because instantly, boredome and sleepiness, well boredom left, sleepiness stuck around in silence and crept on me at around 8pm. I feel asleep at 8 pm by accident and was going to try to finish a cover letter.  I keep telling myself that as soon as I go to bed at 8pm that it is not a nap, but rather it is sleep that I'm going into. I woke up at 3am and fortunately was able to go back to sleep.
Still depression tosses and turns in bed with me at night. I have to keep reminding myself that I get physically affected by this and as well by the fact that it's cold and grey outside which does not encourage running.