Never let anyone make you feel bad

So today I went to my roommates birthday hangout at a place called the Brooklyn Strategist. Let’s just say it wasn’t the best experience. I ended up complaining about it on Yelp and getting a refund before I left.

3 things I’m grateful for

1. Didn’t run today

2. Didn’t have to clean the kitchen

3. Got to shower

3 good things after the incident at Brooklyn Strategist

1. I got groceries at Trader Joes

2. Started working on designs

3. Got to shoot my friend Raoul

Going back to the incident, it was weird because I knew I was being mistreated and yet I stood their in silence and let it happen. I let a white man be rude to me just because I didn’t understand how to play or how to pay at the store. Darren Hardy, one of my heroes/ mentors says, if someone treats him badly, he doesn’t let that slide. If someone treats him badly, he walks away. Instead of doing that, I just paid, but I ended up getting a refund. I ended up talking to the person at the front desk, not the main guy who was rude to me. He was being loud and explaining a game as if he knew everything.

However, I was able to sit there and recognize what I was feeling. It felt like I had just been yelled at by my dad. My arms were shaking. I just felt like nervous reck. My energy was very low. It’s not a good feeling to be in. I can’t believe I let someone take my time, attention, and energy away from me. That’s something that’s going to be hard to break. It almost like in Hunter x Hunter with the character Kilua. He wants to be able to stand up against his brother, but engrained in him is to always run away. My case is that I just want to be silent and passive. When I moved to NYC, I tried to never let anyone treat me unkindly. It worked for a little bit, but I’d always feel drained afterwards. I’m still drained when I’m silent.

Is it better to be drained after fighting back or drained after doing nothing at all. I would think the former rather than the latter. it’s going to take some time to unlearn. I’m not even sure where to start.

Anywho, a friend and I decided to work on some cover art using the Moire Effect. When you scroll, it moves. I practiced some other typography/ color theory assignment through Udacity. Still haven’t worked on the Adobe Creative Residency.

Tomorrow, my goals are to run, clean the kitchen, finish up a zine, go skate/network, start work on the creative residency.